man dont yall think life is great? i dont. life sucks ass! dont try to tell me wrong.
my dad keeps going from different resons why i can't drive. im so pissed right now. i was suppose to call my moms friend to bring me home from school b/c it was raining. i didnt call her b/c i was worried about playing basketball for PE. i also dont like the fact of people doing favors for me. i always have to rely on someone to bring me here or there. it f*cking sucks. i dont know how bad yall lives are but i dont know if it is worse than mine.
i had to walk home in the rain b/c i didnt call someone to bring me home. i cant go workout tonight b/c it is raining now. i have to WALK to my workout place, so looks like i wont be working out today. im tired of people pointing and laughing at me b/c i have to walk home. im about to be 17 years old. why must this sh1t be happening to me? my is my dad such an ass?
i am suppose to be good while my dad is gone and listen to my mom and not answer her back. whats the point? whats my reward? it's not like they will let me drive if i am super good so why even try? why not just keep being an ass to my parents?
im going to have to eventually get a job b/c i dont have much more money in the bank from my last job i had. so how will i get to work? what if it is raining, i have to call them to tell them i cant go to work, or i have to call someone to come pick me up? how retarded is that? there is a truck just sitting in my driveway that doesnt get used but on the weekends. im tired of living like this, how would they feel if i was one of those real bad kids who never did what he was told? what if i told them i wanted to commit suicide? i would never commit suicide but how would they feel if i told them that? would they feel bad? or would they just tell me to do it? would they even miss me when im gone? would they want to change everything that they did, and let me drive, or let me hang out with my friends or just leave me be. i have no life outside of school other than working out. i have to do everything either with my parents or my immediate family. why dont i get to chill with my friends? am i that bad of a child?
someone please comfort me before i get real pissed off. i dont know what i might do.
<message edited by getnswole on Tuesday, February 12, 2008 2:36 PM>