My ramblings, the endless journey

Front squat 5x3 @ 122 all cleans in @ first try, no misses
bench 3x6, 1x4 1x5  @ 45 not even going to talk about it
power clean 5 x 3 @112 that's up I boo booed, and loaded the bar wrong, my subconscious doing wheat my conscious would not do, which is raise that weight to where it SHOULD be for a 5x3

had to skip chins, work was blowing up my phone, since I am going to shoot for at least a 1 day on 2 day off pattern for a while, I think I am goign to squeeze in chins and other body weight exercise, regularly, so I'll get the chins in tomorrow.

You clean more than me. I missed 115 last week. Shucks.

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I wrecked hard last night on the way to kung fu. I was stopped at a light behind a car, went to start, stood on the petals, (it was very windy, and rainy, and cold), was pulling the handles bars toward me (as you do to break the friction lock, especially in the wind), and my right hand totally flew off the handle bar, slipped right off, I went down hard on my left side; as that is where all my weight and force was. I landed with the middle of my thigh on the absolute corner edge of the curb. rasperreid and cut my elbow too, through 3 shirts, a sweater and a slicker... I went to kung fu, my leg got worse and worse, I could barely pick my left leg up, the pain going through my knee, and reaching my ankle at times.. Had to leave during warm ups.. almost didn't make it throught the ride home.

did not lift this morning not even an upper body or a vanity or anything, it is 10% bettter today. I am in work at 1 pm, and i will not leave til 6 am (at the earliest), Saturday morning, there is quite a bit of pshysical activity involved in todays work, big big show...

I am really upset, and pissed off, I am greatful, though, since I could have been easily run over, that was the slowest get up after a wreck I have ever had (including the time I landed on my head), an dI could have easily cracked my femur, I can not descibe how hard I went down, no skid, to absorbe the shock, it was if God b*tch slapped me....

Ok, I think i am ok... and back. I will spare you all the pity party, minus 1 point I broke my work record, 19 hour shift, 19 hours!!!!, with a really bum leg.

I just rested most of the weekend, and a little jaunt into town, to check up on my boys (show Sunday), make sure they were doing what they should... Sad to say it was good I stopped in.

I did a little Kung fu yesterday, didn't go to class, just tring to work out my leg leg... stretch it massage, kneed it, it worked well for a bit, but as soon as I stopped I stiffenend way up. though I was going to do an upper body lift, and just don't have the energy, or the ability... It's like ground hog day (didn't i make this post a couple weeks ago), I think I am in the clear now. everything should be back to schedule, and i should be lifting again, class at my regular 3 days, lift we shall see... 2 day  3day.. (I am second guessing my week old decision to do just a 2 day)....


BLAH, I feel fat and sluggish, and soft, and fat... I look really good though..,. go figure?

I'm back!

Went to class, did not stay for Spirit, my leg was all done playing after regular class.

Could not go into snake stance, on the one side, and any horse stance caused an interest pulling in one of the deepest muscles i  my thigh... Does not bode well for squatting. But hey, Im moving all around, could keep up with class. Kicks where back to a actual kick, rather than sticking my leg out to the side 4 inches off the ground...can raise my knee to my elbow... so hey 85% or so...

Remmie, caught me after class to explain some subtleties about the dragon.... He said after that" he thought he would tell me, because I will actually listen to him" Awesome, becaue our form is all about the subtlties, and I do want to learn it... So I am glad I am putiingout an honest willing to learn vibe... I need GOOD senior students to take an interst in my progression, and fix my form.

We shall see how lift goes, Iam spending a lot of time on ladders todays, and the leg is already quite achey, but at leats I can walk up and down the ladder today, as compared to dragging the bum leg up it.

Hold on to your panties.... I actually did something!

Weapons class only, worked that stick...

Home to lift, it was light and not my routine, Cleans are out of the question (moderate to heavy ones) the drop off of my shoulder trows the bar directly n my oh so tender thigh.. (I know i sound like a pussy, but damn I have just been ****ing myself up in one or another recently.. I can not get over how bad my thigh was smashed, but it is now just tender, with limited range of motion.)No deads either, no way I can pull against my leg like that with real weight.

Military press 67 lbs 5 x5
front squat (oh gentle gentle), 67 lbs 4 x 10 (by the last set ass to grass, no problem, interesting sensation, could pinpoint exactly where my bruising is).
Chin ups 3, 2, 2, 2
Bent over row 82 lbs 3 x8
SLDL 132 3 x8

OOOHHH! WIPEOUT!

We've all done it, had to suck landing on the curb though. I totally sliced my elbow this summer through a sweatshirt trying to pop off my porch and doing an endo instead. I would've passed on fu tho. I guess cause I'm a pussy. haha

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OOOHHH! WIPEOUT!

We've all done it, had to suck landing on the curb though. I totally sliced my elbow this summer through a sweatshirt trying to pop off my porch and doing an endo instead. I would've passed on fu tho. I guess cause I'm a pussy. haha

No, your just not stoooopid!!! I remember reading about your wreck (and you do all that crazy stuff, I NEVER would, and most likely never will do..)... I thought the pain would just work itself out if I kept moving and then I would suffer for it later that night... I was much more damaged than I had realized.

Ah well, 95% today... Thursday and Friday hit the fu.. No free spar, I wasn't gonna, I was running late and I was not in the mood to be kicked in the leg... But, had a solid performance through class, and can almost snake stance as low as could last week...We just did forms on Thursday, not form spar. Started learning Eagle, Jo and I are learning it together, our form pact... THAT'S HARD! There are low sweeps... and a double, spining crescent kick, landing on a knee.. that is going to take me ages, I mean just forever to learn.. I can tell already...

Friday, I helped a very new person for the first half of class so it wasn't at all taxing physically. I had to watch it so I wouldn't scare her away. She is a weird (pot calling kettle black?), teenager. I think her mom is making her come, because she is having problems in school with her peers, she is terribly out of shape and fat, has self esteeme and buly problems.. I had to watch how I pushed her, so I didn't just push her right out the door...

Did some more advanced forms after I was relieved, with the rest of class.. Sparred with Chrissy, the other tough fitness girl in class... Finally! I have been waiting for that, so she can show me a thing or two.... We did these throws we never do... and of course she couldn't teach me the one, cause we do them so infrequently, she had a hard time explaining... She got her husband over Ian, to show them to me after class the right way, threw me clear across the room, I rolled out of it though ... they both got their red sash this year. It was a great... I have been wanting to make nice with her for a while... I have a non-sexual Kung Fu crush on Chrissy!

I'm moving my journal over to the powerful women section of t-nation. there's a lot of women over there with lifting goals and just a more supportive network. You should come along! I'm trying to get Jane to do it too since she left here.

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Maybe I will, I'll check it out ripped, your like the only one who regularly post to my journal anyway... I should follow my support system.I'll miss you If I don't follow... you should keep in touch, ripped...

Hang Clean and press.. 5 x3 @ 77 
Deadlift 1 x5 ramping 157 x 5 167 x 5 177 x5 187 x 5 212 x5
Bent over rows 3 x 8 @ 87
Ab set raised hip crunches, side crunches (straight leg), hip ups, legs extended... 3 x 15

Had a decent night in Fu town, worked my dragon when I was able, (during breaks)... Worked up a hell of a sweat, I am not sure how that happened... Noticed improvements on my side kicks : )

form sparred with Allen.. love that guy, he hasn't been around for quite a while, (he works a labor job in summer, and college rest of the year, he gets in when he can). we did more advanced form spars, with simultaneous kick + punch attacks to defend against... It was a big sloppy mess between the two of us, but we did pretty good for how difficult it was... Always like sparring that guy, I don't know why we are a really odd pairing... he's like 7 feet taller than I am and I am about 700 lbs heavier, than he... an exaggeration, but you get the point. what is supper funny is we are pretty evenly matched... with the exception of my test in free spar, where I totally beat the crap out of him (or that's is what the people in class told me).

Should do a weapons and a lift tonight. we shall see.. leg still hurts in a really deep stretch, but otherwise all good to go.

Jane came over, now we're just waiting on you!

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I'll probably move over in a week or two ripped if you got Janie... It looks really active, and your correct supportive...

I will still pop in here... I like keeping an eye out for new ladies... gotta school them properly... can;t rely on the boys to do it right... 

Front squat 5x3 @ 122 miss second set... got them in.. the actual squatting was harder this week.. suffering form my inconsistency
bench 4x6, 1x3 1x2 @ 45 not even going to talk about it
power clean 5 x 3 @112 bad form, bad hardway.
had to skip chins again... 2:30 am I was finishing up... I am doing longer more thorough warm ups.. (good hardway, good) I never get over how long these 5 x5 's take... If I did the chins... I would have ended up watching  the second half of "count Yorbo, the vampire" (really that's the sad truth, well also I did one and could not get a second one.. I gotta get to this stuff earlier in the day)... I did have to be at work this morning at 7:30 am...  Couldn't make weapons.. I was stuckat work, surprise....

Fu town, screwed myself... my bicycle was in a room that was being used for recording a violinist audition tape.. My relief actually showed up in time for me to make spar... but I couldn't get my bike out... dumbass.. it worked out only because I hit the dollar store for dollys... bought 24!!!! they are little demon heads now, all painted up. :)

Went to forms class, I was all off balance, could not figure out why... when I got home I remebered I had 3 hours sleep the night before. DUH!

Slopped through... forms part was fine, and then we instead of form sparm, we did rather controlled free spar.. jo and I were together, she ain't got nothing on me!!!! Actually she has quite a bit more than she realizes... but yueah, I spar regualrly (ok not so much the past month or 2) she doesn't...

We worked on Eagle, I just put out the HELP email, to buddy John (formally from my school), the double spin kick and the sweaps... hell the whole damn form is a mess... we are trading he wants help with his obliques, so we's gonna trade... I'll even give him what he requests, rather thanwhat I know he needs to do (oh I've told him, he doesn't want to do it), so oblique iso's it is...

Ok, halloween fun is all over... back to business.. damn I have never been as inconsistent in 4 years of training... as I have the past couple months...

Hang Clean and press.. 5 x3 @ 82 (up)
 Deadlift 1 x5 ramping 157 x 5 167 x 5 177 x5 187 x 5 217 x5 (up, although dubious lock out at top, for some )
Bent over rows 3 x 8 @ 87

Did a lot of kung fu stuff, instead of abs or auxiliaries.. I'm all stiff so loosening up was a bit of a problem, before and after... I punched it away ; P

Still disturbed by my continual progression, while I am not complaining it does not make any sense.. except that I do have more than ample time to recover ( I would think way too much time to recover).... and i had a giant snack attack the past week and a half... that's over too...

Kung Fu... I was all sorts of on during forms... I am back at 100%... I was very focused on what I was doing for the most part... It was a very small class... SEPTA is on strike.. so anyone who takes subway, trolly or bus pretty much wasn't showing up.... Man, biking in this city is dangerous, but tons of extra cars... everybody pissed off... tons of extra pedestrians... good night...

My long dragon had a nice moment when i was practicing during a water break... except for one transition... that I had and now seemingly have lost...

Form sparred with Steve, he requested it before we even got to that portion of class... SUXS... cause Remey asked me to dance, when the time came. Remey is very, very good; I want to learn from him... I don't want to teach Steve... he has started and droped out twice... now he had a serious heroine problem, hence the back and forth (all before my time, except for this 3rd and final return, if he leaves he is not allowed back for a 4th time). He is a nice guy he is genuine, he means really well, but he is just awful, when he calls warm ups and forms the class just wants to die, out of embarrasement... he is awful in a way that is not really fixable...not by me anyway. He could not figure out what we were supposed to do... and his confusion, twisted everything up in my head as well... Phan even shot me a wide eyed look, that look that says yeah, I saw that, I am sorry, hopeless isn't he, it's brutal to work with him... you all know the look I am talking about... Yeah, nobody reads my journal so who the hell am I talking to... really got to move this over to T-Nation, so I can play with Bobbi and Jane... But anyway we muddled through...

THIS IS NOT WORKING FOR ME!


I don't know why... I did make it to weapons, worked very hard got the end back down, watched Remey, take someone through it and I finally grasp the last kick sequence... FINALLY!!!!!!!! damn I have been working on this for 9 months now! I can't even figure out why that was hard.

My shoulders were very sore from throwing the staff around...

I got home, the lift didn't happen I even warmed up, the 87 warm up clean squats felt like 100... I loaded the bar to my working weight, and it was impossible... 122 felt like 157??? I didn't have it. I need to figure my schedule so that I can get 2 days rest always, between lift days these days... I just can't seem to get more than 4-5 hours sleep, and that is the culprit... Spar day fuxz me, I don't want to miss the oppurtunity, I htink this means i need to lift on fridays again, and give up my Friday class. I really liked ending my work week with class, but I think for liftings sake I have to choose... and i think I will choose to fight, over friday night spirit class, I can do that on my own, I can not fight on my own...

We just got this exercise bike yesterday, I rode sprints, / almost HIIT, but not quite, figuring out the thing... Treadmil died quite a long time ago, so it's nice to have a cardio machine in the house agian...

SO I guess i will lift Friday...

So dumb ass over here thinks she figured out her problem... I have been off the ZMA for a few weeks.. I remember I had forgotten to take it one night, and had had a decent nights sleep. Thought maybe this was a temporary deficiency (can't even remeber how long I have been taking the combo, a good long while though); and it had finally gotten to normal... maybe my diet changed enough (it differes) that I was getting my mag, zinc, and B-12 (-6 ???, it's early can't remember which one, which is really dumb, since I buy them seperately instaed of taking super over priced ZMA compound). I stoped taking them entirely and haven't for several weeks.... duh. why don't I have energy... why do I punch and kick my boyfriend when he tries to wake me up, and yell, and fall back asleep, and remeber none of it... hmmmmmmmmm.

So my magical pills last night, woke up fresh as a daisy (for me), no yelling, no kicking no crying...fell good! So back to pills I go! I really hope that is it, and I can get back to business as usual.

Sparred for a long time with Demitri, which was a good choice as he fights with the forms... rather than some others who just fight... Easier to just fight, over time more effective to fight using the fiorms we are learning, 9an dI am paying big bucks to learn, I might add). i couldn't land **** on him, I guess he took it a little easy on me, however he diodn't really land **** on me either. First time back to real spar in a while... we faught for a solid 10-15 minutes... it was a very fun spar...

Forms class was hard, and exshausting... we did mixed forms, and complicated warm ups... HOLLY CRAP I did something so insignificant and awesome (to only me)... we were doing mixed forms, and especially as a beginer, we are right hand heavy, many things we do are done with both the left arm dominate and the right arm... but not everything, the rest is rigth hand leading if you will. But, over time or when you get to the pure form from which the move is derived from, you learn the mirror image... So our warm ups are right hand dominate, in a few things. Sometimes, when there are no new students in the class, Phan throws in the mirror image (very rarely), last night it was bird takedown... I have never evre been able to flip that move with left hand leading... and last night, to my great surprise... I came out like I had been practicing it a year! Whoopie...

Worked on cursive, for all of class, when I try to incorporate the full body movement, I lose my balance, in general... So I was sloppy....

All and all very good class.

HW,
  You don't get weird dreams/nightmares from the ZMA, and wake up groggy?  I took it for 4 days and stopped because I didn't like those sides.  With the hard workouts I've been pretty tired lately even though I'm bulking.  I can only imagine the energy deficit on a cut, lol!  Some sort of flu/virus has spread through the family the last week and I just feel like hibernating.  I always take the tiredness as a sign my body needs sleep to recover and grow muscles.  But it's hard to get anything done.  Any suggestions?

Well, the thing is I don't dream with out ZMA... I genuinely am deficient in those compounds for some reason or another... ok that is speculation, on my part, but one that I has been supported by going on and off ZMA, several times... What lead me to believe I fine ot go off it this last time, is when I forgot to take it the first night, I did dream, So I figured I had some how reset... But, then most of the symptoms, that lead me to try ZMA in the first place, started to creep back in... The most important one, being constant fatiuqe. Then came totally groggy unrested feelings even when I techincally was rested enough, and total lack of motuivation and loss of energy in everything I do... Then came inability to wake up in the mornings.

 Now I have stated I have not been getting anything more than 5 hours sleep a night recently, but i also know my sleep cycles well. If I get 4 hours sleep, I can wake up well... my sleep cycles, go in 4 hour intervals, it actually is better for me to get 4 hours of sleep over 6... if I am woken up in the middle iof my sleep cycle, when I am in the middle of REM sleep, I have a terible time, if I wake up in 4 I have just come out of deep deep sleeop (though still sleeping), and am on the cusp of cycling back down for another round,.... I can wake up feeling refreshed, not pulled out from "slipping in to darkness" If you know what that quote is from, you get 25 cool old man bonus points...

So that is the long way of explaining, that I have figured out why I get excessively tired ( I really hope this fixes me again)... But it is really specific to myself, and I doubt it would translate over to you.. and if you have at all kept up with my journal, youwill see I have had a hell of a time comabting my fatiuge, recently, and really didn't have any solutions, other than getting more sleep, but that was not doing it for me either...

Thx HW!

What I get from your journals is that you're very very busy with work and then you do all of this physical stuff too.  It's no wonder you're fatigued.  I don't know how you do it all!

Hope you can catch a break this weekend!  Good workin' out!  :)

So I am going to switch some stuff around... I would really like to implement some of the training strategies I have been reading about, lately, gear my routine, more towards adequate recovery and kung fu performance, over absolute strength... while maintaining, if not increasing my absolute strenght... My major concerns is lack of gym, and if I want to do singles... or doubles, that is difficult as I work at home, safety equiptment non existant... but i am going to work on jumping a bit... as well.. my vertical suxs... and for some of our kicking, that is presenting a problem...

SO I played around a little with a purposed routine, but not really at working weight... I knew it would not work ion the progression the way I outlined it on Friday nioght, so i did a random rep sceme, and felt it out but... I think I can ciome up with something that sticks with the principlas, while working with in my limitations...

I ****ed around, and

squat jumps, 4 x 8 (no weight, man a sad statement about my jumping, that actually jumping down to up to squat unweighted actually tired me out)
Front squats 87lb 4 x 8 (pussy, fullest range of motion, and brilliant form I must say, and they should have been at that weight)
Militarty press... 4 x 8 @ 57 lbs
Chinms 3, 2, 2, 2
Rdl 4 x8 @ 127lbs
Incline shrugs db 4 x 8 @ 20 lb (db's)
push ups...

So we shall see if I can design this in a way that I can do the ME work, (the SE and RE is no tproblem, ME only when I am suppose to do under 3 reps.. and that is really on;y a problem on squats and bench... eh we shall see... I am so wishy washy... but i think a new program might breathe some life into me.

And on energy front, feel a ton better (pshchoscematic perhaps), but i just was flame on this weekend, and when I flamed off, man diod I sleep... Got a ton of stuff completed around the house, and on Saturday, slept from 8 to 8 : )

Budy John, stopped by my work for my kick sequence tutorial... for Eagle. The kick is like a 520 dergree, spin all told, 3 kicks, 1 jump kick spin, land on one knee with the other leg outstreched. We went over and over and over again... He watched my dragon,, advice, breathe... I should be better at that, suxs that I am not... good hour or so of working through those forms, got good feedback wished I would have gotten more... the angle of my kicking is incorrect as well. Use the foot like Knife hand, land the kick with the blade on the foot, not bottom.... breathe out on all kicks for the moment, to help with my breathing.. I wish I had gotten more feedback, but he is correct, what we disgused is fundamental, there is no, ok i understand that, what else.. that is incorrect, the breathing controls the energy and the movement... fix the breathing, fix the movement..  I'll tell you what Kung FU is like life, a giant pain in the ass, and just when you think you understand somehting, it all goes to ****.


Starting to really be disgusted with myself... Looked at designing the new program, and again, had to realize that it is really difficult to implement any real structured intermediate progression, with he equipment I have available. I need to buy some new books.  (no room for different equipment). I need to look deeply into changing what I do around... I am soo stuck, in all my progressions. Main culprits would be bench, and squats... th limiter on the squats is the clean to get the weight into position...I have some ideas, but I am not sure that implamenting them will help my kung fu performance, and I do need to focus on that... I need to maintain my strenght, (whether or not I increase it should not really matter, but it does I feel ultra weak). So I just did the set work out i was supposed to do on Friday, but had subed it instead... probably should have done my "B" workout, it would have made more sense...

made sure I had a good warm up... thought that would help my performance, lies...
Missed the clean to my squat 4 times @ 122 Dropped the weight
Front squat 5x6 @ 107 (I could NOT do more than 6 reps!!, for f*cks sake what the hell the jumping and kicking.... what!)
bench 3x5 1x4 1x4 @ 45 DB's (****ity ****ity ****)
 power clean 5 x 3 @107 lbs (way hard)
chins, get this ****... 1 1 1 1 what the hell!!!!

Hardway is full of self loathing and HATE, today.

Kung Fu was ok, I was trying to implement the corrections John gave me... The kick angle, and that just ****ed me all sorts of up... couldn't keep balance, even screwed up several forms becasue I was thinking too hard about what I was doing, in very specific ways, and therfor, couldn't remember what I was supposed to do next....

Phan corrected my long dragon... so several places where, I initally was told to kick, and then Phan removed the kick... and I know he did, because of Jo, and our pact... I'm a stoner she is not (not that I get high and go to class.... but still in general,  i accept that of my memory isn't always the sharpest), she remembers the kicks being taken out, I remember the kicks being taken out... so together we KNOW the kicks were taken out... well they are all back in.... : (   so now i have to put them back... sigh....

Had a pretty good spirt class, I felt it, and I worked withit for a long time, longer than I had planned (I went back to work after class, Raekwon from Wu-tang Clan played my building last night... say what! Not a hip hop/rap girl, but some things are just undeniably good  Wu Tang being one of them.... and that was a high profile big deal show, I work here, I HAD to go, it was not to be missed... all and all pretty boring, and HIGH stress, considering I am responsible for what goes on here, and 90% of what I saw should not be happening here.) Any ay a nice time with my dead guy. 

Schools is going to another tournamet this weekend, Phan asked me again to compete... I am just not at a place whith my forms that I am comfortable, and I would have to stop some of my corrrections, because I could not perform them well, fixed... so NO I am not doing this one, probably will stop by to watch, it is right in town...

I had such a good class... worked staff for only 25 minutes... my hips were hurting, in a weird way, so I only did a little staff work, and waited for normal class to begin...

Finally felt like I had made some serious progress... I was super clear, and cursive in my movements, my stances were low... The kick corrections are holding... I felt really good through out the whole thing... I busted out some sweet forms... I know I did!

Think i am gogn to watch the tournament of Saturday, support the team and all.

I think Kung Fu is awesome. My father and i are both black belts in taekwondo

Height = 5'9
11/01/09...11/12/09...06/19/10
Weight = 184...186...195   
B.Squat = 315...365...435
Deadlift = 385...405...455
Cleans = 155...175...275
Bench = 245...255...335

We have a number of former taekwondo devotees, who now study my form... : )

Yeah, it has done a world of good for me, I am very glad I started training, almost 2 years now!

Had a lovely class, not much to discuss need to go. Did not spar, I had a seriously terrible headache, brought on by work...fighting would not have been wise.. I was surprised I stayed for class at all, and had as good a performance as I did.

So got stuck at work last night... got home way to angry and tired to lift... 1 week in a screwing it up... However it allowed me today to sit down uninterrupted and come up with an entire new plan. One that makes sense, one that I think I can do, with in the confines of my living room, and one that should alow me to recover and advance...
I started with a little wiggle room, so I can advance...I hope
A... lower clean...

Power clean DE/ME  5 x 1 @ 117
Overhead squat ME 5x 3 @ 57 (I used to rep 20 at 57 and up, but these will stall out quick... So if I add like I should, I'll be at taxing in no time. It also has been a while since I did them regularly)
RDL SE 4 x 6 @157
Lunges RE 3 x 12  @ 30 DB
knee to elbow double knee cross 2 x 10 (each side)
Planks 2 x 60 Sec

SO I have 4 different workouts an upper and a lower, will do at least 2 per week in addition to Kung fu. I have a planed preogression and rep schemes... Major goal is increase the clean, since squat is dependent on my clean weight...

Off to weapons and forms I went... Did not want to but went anyway....Never made it to the tournament this weekend, I got called into work... because of a banner hanging crisis, stupid people and their stupid half ass plans, that end up wasting my time... oooohhhhh I didn't even think of that....no you wouldn't your a ****ing idiot...  So I got the results, 1 first and 2 second place, I believe. 

Worked staff fort he solid 45 minutes... I am just not happy with where that is, and where my progress is... There is a good chance I will miss my test, I have a feeling it is going to happen when I'm in Egypt... So there is no rush but my own drive to be better than I am .... I want to be better damn it...   ; )

Forms was alright, as is the fall pattern, a number of new students.. so i was the 3rd most senior person, in forms who was to helping a flat beginner.. I called my full 3rd of the class, no one beneath me would call... I guess that is no longer an issue... can we call that progress??? Ok I guess not...

Form spar was simple, and that was a nice change of pace... I can't remember the guys name, but we understood what we were supposed to be doing , and did it! Hoorah!

Another form intensive class... I tried hard, successes at a minimum. Form Sparred with Allen, It has been a while since we played. I forgot how easy it is to get all tangled up in his long ass arms and legs... a good time was had by all...

this morning, Let see if I can remember what I did...

Week 1 day upper bench

Bench ME 5x3 @ 45 lb DBS
Bent over rows ME 5 x3 @ 97 lb
Chin up (should be se... was not, 'casue I can't ) 3, 3, 2, 2
OH press SE 4 x 6 @ 30 lb db's
Push ups RE 3x 12 (bw)
Rotator cuff super set RE 3 x 12 @ 3 lbs... (can't remember what the 2 I do are called)

I really think there was something else in there, But I don't know what.....Felt good, scared about the next round and doing bench, the way the progression is outlined...