Mmk, this actually is NOT going to be a training journal. I just want somewhere to write down my thoughts, ya know? So I will probably be writing just random things in here, some serious, some not. I'd love some comments so if I write something that catches your attention...tell me what's up.


   First off, just got back home last night. Was in Dallas, TX for a week in Youth for the Nations church camp, and it was amazing to say the least. I can't exactly describe in words what it was like...so I'll just leave it at that. After being down there as a Youth Leader, instead of a camper like I was last year, it's really been eye opening. I realized that a lot of these younger kids in our youth really look up to me (not saying this in a prideful way), and that I really need to step my game up for them as much as for my own sake.
   I think I may have decided that no matter what I end up doing as a career, I am going to want to do some Youth ministry on the side...it's just something that I am very passionate about. I love kids, and I want to be able to be a positive influence in their lives. This last week also reinforced the fact that, I have nothing to fear when it comes to my faith. I can be ridiculed, laughed at, yelled at, spit at, cursed at...all because of my beliefs (most of those things have been done to me anyways), and I can still look at the people doing these things with love in my heart and hope for them, in contrast to the anger and pain that I haev felt before.
   I got home from Dallas around 5pm Friday afternoon, and was at work by 5:30. Needless to say, I was emotionally exhausted, as well as physically, and going from an amazing church camp to a casino like that was...quite a reality check. It was a strange night for me to say the least. We actually had an incident with a customer that was playing blackjack. One of the newer dealers was dealing to him and left him out of a hand because he was taking too long to make his bet and the rest of the table was ready to go. Should the dealer have gone on without the customers permission? No. But the customer (Roger) should not have reacted the way he did. He stood up and threw his chips and began pointing a finger in the dealers face and cussing him out. He stormed off and got the rest of his money and then came back and did the same thing again.
    I was in the break room and I guess no other employees stood up for the dealer, which kind of upset me, because he is a newer dealer and he was acting like he was fine, but he was obviously bothered by the whole thing. Well later that night when I was on the table, this man, FOR SOME REASON, decides to come back. I take a quick $75 from him and he scoops up his chips and starts telling me about how our other dealer will be getting fired for cheating him like that. Now...I'm a pretty blunt person, so I politely asked him if he would like to place a bet on that? Because I like my odds. This didn't help, and I probably should have kept my mouth shut, but for some reason the whole situation just infuriated me, I had adrenaline pumping...I couldn't sit still. It ended up turning into this big problem and he started cussing at employees again (including our floor manager whom I happen to really like and I politely stepped in and asked him to never again talk to her like that). He eventually left the table and the rest of the night was boring...just an interesting first night back.
    On a lighter note, I'm doing back to Dallas next Tuesday before we leave for Alaska, and I'm considering getting a tattoo. I'm thinking maybe either scripture down the inside of my bicep, or something on my shoulder blade...not sure yet tho, and if I don't decide on something definate by Tuesday I'm not going to rush into something I don't really want.
    Anyways, I'm done for now...hope everyone is havin' a great day.

                God Bless,
                               Corbin

Actually, I'm not done yet...how could I forget this.

Adynn (my baby sister who will be 3 in a couple of months) has been very sick these last few weeks. She has been in and out of the doctor quite a few times, and they have always said that they are not sure what is wrong with her. Well I'm down in Dallas and I get a voicemail from my mom saying that they are down in Oklahoma City at the OU Children's Hospital with her and they something is wrong and to call her whenever I can. Well I can't get ahold of her and I just pretty much lose it. The youth pastor that night was talking about how sometimes it takes cataclysmic events in our lifes for us to turn to God. All I could think about was my little baby sister in a hospital bed and that voicemail, and I just broke down in tears. I felt so helpless. I was hundreds of miles away and there was absolutely nothing I could do and I had no way of knowing what was going on.
    Well I finally get ahold of my mom and they found out she has menengitis (sp?) and that she will be in the hospital for a few days, but she should be ok. Even while I'm down in Dallas I have people asking me about rumors going around Tonkawa about what happened to her, people saying that she had a stroke... and I just disregard them. My mom would tell me if something like that happened to my baby. Well when I get back in town I ask her about it. She did. My 2 year old baby sister had a stroke. And I wasn't told about it. Then it dawns on me that she had been in and out of the doctors office for weeks, and they never said anything about menengitis or a stroke. HOW IN THE WORLD CAN YOU MISS SOMETHING LIKE THAT WHEN SHE WAS IN THERE THAT MANY TIMES?!
    They couldn't even tell us WHEN she had the stroke, just that he had one and that it was a good thing that my mom decided (for some reason) to drive 100+ miles Sunday night to go to the Children's Hospital.
    I can't quite explain the feelings that were going through me when I found all of this out. But I can honestly say that if something had happened to my baby sister because some doctor hadn't managed to realize that she had menengitis or a STROKE after seeing her that many times...I don't know what I would have done. I dunno, I can't really explain what I felt hearing all this but...just felt like getting it off my chest.

          God Bless,
                      GR

GR I wish your sister good luck, I have a younger sister and couldn't imagine what it would be like to go through that.

ORIGINAL: Good Riddance

Mmk, this actually is NOT going to be a training journal.

sweet, then dont put it here...

Hmm...issues?

Thanks for the kind thoughts Raiden.

Hey suck a fat one rollingstone.

this is for training journals, i dont think we need your diary in here.

Dude who cares it's not hurting anyone. 

LoL, gracias for the assistance there Yoto, but no need to get ya'll fired up at each other over something like this.

Stone, I feel like there is some tension between us? I'll be blunt, if it bothers you this much that I feel like writing some stuff down...that is very, very sad. If it hurts you that much, then simply don't click on the thread. It's not hard, I'm sure a smart young man like yourself can figure that out.

Lol Yah your right i like both yall so I see no need for a feud or anything.

Nah I don't really see any problems here, I don't have a problem with anyone here.

**EDIT**
If RS has a problem with me personally, now would be a great time for him to say something...he has my attention.

ORIGINAL: RollingStone

this is for training journals, i dont think we need your diary in here.

Some people are really insensitive and narcissistic not mentioning any names offcourse.

Raiden please don't talk about me like that, hurts my feelings.  


Nah I'm joking, I don't have feeling. You have to have a heart to have feelings.

lol

YAY New diary entry 

Just got a letter from Oklahoma State. I got a full tuition waiver and they will be paying me $2,800 cash a year to go there. Plus I got a $3,000 a year scholarship earlier...so I'm going to be practically getting paid to go to college. w00t.