Well the answer to your question is short and long...
I want to have enough strength/mass to have a chance at playing college/some form of professional football somewhere.
Thats the short answer.
My ultimate goal size wise is 210-220 @ or < 10% BF. So right now I would need to add 15 or so pounds of LBM and lose some fat.
Now I dont know everything, and in fact I keep learning all the time...nutrition probably is my weakest link when it comes to knowledge about how to manipulate the body into producing the results I want...
But I bust my ass week in and week out, and I just dont ever see the results of 1-2 pounds a week. Not that im a skeptic because I know you really know your stuff, but either I just dont understand what im doing fully yet, or my genetics just wont let me gain that fast.
Truth be told I have gained ALOT within this past year and some, I would venture I have put on a good 25-30 pounds of LBM in that time, dropped BF but its still not where I want it too be.
And it probably is because I just dont understand the body as a whole yet, let a lone all the macro and tiny pieces to the puzzle. I mean you went to school and have studied/trained for many years...I feel lost when I read about determining proper nutritional %'s food timing, etc...
I am going back to school for C&M biology, so hopefully I will begin to understand aspects of the body and processes a little better in time...but I digress.
I mean training wise I still dont fully understand my own body. When to deload/rest, when to really push it...I mean im learning more, but it seems like its so easy to screw things up sometimes.
I mean you read articles, study and practice good programming and nutrition and sometimes it just doesnt seem like enough...like im still doing something wrong from training to nutrition to cardio to rest.
like I said all I know is I bust my ass in the gym, eating 90% clean...and the 10% I would say is still not bad. (No candy, sugar, pop or any of that crap)
I work a night time weekend job where I work from 6pm-3am...so my sleep pattern is rather borked...and that has crossed my mind as a culprit for keeping me from maximal gains, but I cant prove it... I generally stay care-free and handle stressful situations with firmness and precision. But I do deal with a good amount of stress.
Anyway, I am proud of what I have accomplished without steroids...I really am. But I really want to give that "dream" a shot, and me being bigger/faster/stronger is really an essential aspect. I just dont know if I can accomplish what I want without them...then theres the fact that nearly everyone who plays takes them, or a good amount do, but thats another discussion.
I really didnt want this to turn into "i want to use" thread. But thats generally how I feel atm give or take, I rambled on for sometime im sure I forgot something.
danmirage
Nm0ney34, the general question aside, you said you don't think you can achieve what you need to achieve physically. I don't know what that is but in general, I would disagree.
How much do you need to put on?
10 pounds? 20? 30? more?
Seriously...you can gain 1-2+ pounds a week with proper training, recovery and nutrition: balance, volume, and timing.
I have been training myself and others naturally for over 30 years and I have seen this type of gain on people regularly. Why not you?
As for your intent for asking the question, I am with Thehardway. I am really not interested in hiding things from the people important in my life. If I need to hide something, it is a good sign I need to rethink what is going on.
I do think people are, for the most part, being practical when they do not openly tell others that they take steroids. I know of people who lost promotional contracts for admitting use. For professionals, there is a great deal of money and the stigma.
However, steroids are antithetical to the reason I bodybuild.
Knowing the deeper science behind steroids just reinforces my point of view.
I also practiced organic farming as a farmer. Same thinking.
I am also not going to judge other people's choices. I don't feel the need to project my values on to others, but I am not going to respect your progress as much...again based on what I value.